“We meet to depart and depart to meet again.”

After having departed from almost all my closest friends,  I can certainly endorse this.  There cannot be a time better than now to accept this truth of life. My best friend of 12 years is in the same city but is not in touch with me. Where is my closest buddy and alter ego living, I don’t even know that. And recently, I got a call from someone I haven’t spoken to in last six years.

This person (AD) had been very close to me in my college days but would disappear like a seasonal fruit.  This went on for three years and finally we parted ways after I closed college in 2004.  I met him after five long years at a college friend’s marriage last year. We met, we spoke and then I came home with no extra baggage of memories.  Since then, he had been paying constant visits to my Orkut profile. And as courtesy, I had always tried to equalise the visits 😛

But time doesn’t let ego diminish. He did not send me a friend request [ which I would have declined with ease 😉 ]. Two days back, I got a call from him. Totally unexpected!!! We met and then I came back home. This time, I couldn’t stop myself from the nostalgia. How badly had I wished to be with him, to be a part of his family. And today, it did not matter. Who he was and where he was.  I did not fight over past issues but just said some words to make him realise what morality in relationships mean.

He became apologetic to have caused new trouble over his call. 😀

Nah! I wasn’t troubled. I had kept everything to myself in those six years. And felt great (read light) to have said all this to him. Today, I do not love him and neither wish to be his friend. But the fact remains that I have never hated him . I have never hated anyone in my life except one man on this earth (who to an extent spoiled my childhood), but have forgiven him too. Life is all about forgiving and forgetting. Today, I am full of love for life. I do not hate anyone. Neither do I get angry at trivial issues.  I owe this to my guide, my teacher Karthik (name changed). My biggest achievement  in last one year is that my anger and ego have become small. And I can’t thank Karthik (a Vipassana meditator for over 10 years) enough for this. He too is somewhere I can’t reach. But his thoughts have shown me the path to lead the right way of life. 🙂

Life is only about loving and giving with open hands. I hold no grudges against my friends who left me. I still have good feelings for them. As for AD, I just hope he gives up his ego someday and becomes a good human being. Amen!